finger tips

root canals screw with my finger tips.  the small instruments used in treatment just destroy my fingers after running them between my index finger and thumb.  those two areas are already sort of calloused now.  i know...its a tragedy.  actually, more irritating for me is that i am a regular tasbih user and it actually hurts everytime i move the beads.  what a complicated life. 

speaking of tasbihs...i was recently reading a book in which it was mentioned that a commonly repeated phrase of certain sufis is, "from Allah we came, and to Him shall be our return."  obviously, it is done in the arabic but nonetheless it is powerful. 

not only is it truth but it is ultimately the goal of one who is concerned with the closeness and relationship he has with God.  not only do i accept that as my fate but ultimately it is what i want as well.

and lastly today...i was driving home and at a typical traffic jam point i found myself stalled for about 10 minutes.  nothing new.  although today i did happen to note one guy who was acting a bit funny for being stuck in traffic.  so earlier along the same route, i saw this same guy pass me and at that time he stuck out to me because his car was making all kinds of noises.  but even more interesting was the grin on his face as his car clanged past me at speeds that i was certain were not safe for his car.  i found the whole picture to be odd.  anyway somehow he ended up right behind me in the traffic jam and amazingly he wore the same grin.  in fact he kept the smile the whole way through.  now im not sure if that was a smile telling of contentment, insanity, or intoxication but i was happy for him.  of course i hope its the first choice and if that is true then a part of me is jealous.